HmmmM..todae ar is Christmas Eve! WeeEe~!!!! Went out with bballers and Xiao^MaNtOu..Yeah it was damn nice. A very happy memory..=) Hmmm..take cab to PS with Xiao^MaNtOu and yd. Hahaha...i pao dao wan. Then Xiao kuku go pay me. Haiyoh..next time no need k..? Then went to buy ticket and eat KFC. Mk and the rest come le. They eat so slow. Then me and Xiao went to shop shop for my christmas exchange present later on at the nite. =p Bought one water bottle holder and one gift put at the door one for bro's gf. Hahahax..after that go watch movie. =p See first row. WAh..heng ar..the screen damn big nia no need strain the neck. Hahahahax..then !!!! DAmn funny and nice!!!!!!!!!!! Well, actually quite lame lar. Hahahhax..but aiya..mus see watch with who le. Hahahahax..Then hmmm...very very fun lo..=P this is such a great moment to remember? Yeah..! Then go buy gift for sis. Coz at nite she also wanna exchange gift. Go buy one small pouch. Hahaha..then go home le.Then on the mrt. Hahahaha.. ar..? Hahaahaha..!!!! Rofl`!!!!! Reach tamp le..Xiao go TM i go home le. Hai..sad seh. Time pass so fast. Wah liew.. -.-''' Reach home slp a while go makan outside and went to auntie hse exchange gift. So boring over there. Wish that I can be with CUTIE at that moment. Haix...She also pathetic. Wanted to go K-Box but all her friends bo $$$...Hai..Now Christmas le..Sch reopen soon. Will we be able to spend so much time together again..? Hope so man..Tml going overseas. Hai..damn everytime go overseas..ON CHRISTMAS SOMEMORE!!! Go Genting and celebrate alone. =( Lonely )= no choice. Already book the tickets le. Can't see Xiao for 3 days..? Man, can die ar~!!!! Hope there got LAN shop can go online..=p =p =p HmmMm..end here bah. HmmmM...Xiao thanks for ur companion ar..for todae Christmas Eve..Can say this is the best Christmas gift eh..?

Saturday, December 25, 2004

It was suppose to be a very happy moment. But my mum spoilt all the mood i had. I'm losing my grip.

Wat happen tonite. I don't know. Its my fault..I lost the concentration. I flunk it. I piss tutor off. Fed up. Complaint to mum. MuM is fuck up. She gets at me. The never ending scolding. I'm very very frustrated. Totally losing grip. Started toking about my academic. My life. Interfering my life..yes she should. She jus done it overboard. No way she scolds my buddies. No way. She did it. I lost my grip but i kept my mouth tight. She's been naggin. I listen on. The pain just gets deeper. She just hurt my pride. MY pride..is My everything. She breaks it. No more basketball only studies. No more going out only indoors. I can never survive. I wanna freedom. I wanna back my life. I wanna see her. Nothing can ever stop me. She's becoming part of me. I can never give up basketball. There's no way. That's my life and i live by it. I can't rely on that. I know..but the lost of basketball will be the lost of me. MY confidence, hard work almost everything everything..will jus gone in split seconds. I wanna study hard. But i reaching my limit. I can't go on..Give me a break. Pls..the brain is jus giving way. Nothing can stop it..You compare me to cousins. Yes they are capable. Think about the standarad we are having. Its far too much different. You should have done it b4 saying it. Because..wat u say..i think that u are tryin to say i'm stupid. Yeah, i am. I die for basketball...I neglect homework. I can't bring glory to the family. Yeah..i know it. Give me time. I prove u wrong. U give me stress..makes me give up hope. I hate comparing. I know i suck..i do suck. Don't condemn me. I can't take it the way you are saying. I'm been trying hard to be wat i used to be. A scholar. But wat happens is long ago. I don't know wat happen. But its past. Let it past. To get back myself. Take times. Sacrifice my passion. I can't! I jus can't! I'm sorry its my fault again. Yeah..I hope to get back my ownself. Support u in future. My resposibility. Are'nt u thinking too far..? Doctor my amibition. The pressure given, minimise my passion for it. Its hard..Its hard.. You are jus giving too much pressure. Lessen a bit. I know where i'm going. I know wat i'm doing. You say u understand. But you are jus disappointing..I don't know what i can do now. MY mind..spinning..spinning..Have i done the correct way..? Am i right? Am i wrong..? Dad..wish u were here to give me some support. We share the same ambition. Bless me. I wish to be wat u are. Lives..saved..by.....me....Yes..i Wanna be. I'm stressed up. You know that..? I don't know how to express but to came here. I have no guts to tell it to mantou. I don't know why. Useless..? I am but i will change it. Failure..? I don't think so. EVeryone fails b4. No one is perfect. I had trash it all done. I felt quite cool rite now. Todae..Is todae...pple often says let bygone goes bygones? But can this pain left me..maybe it will during basketball. Let's hope so..After all this..I wonder wazz life..? Is life suppose to be wonderful..? Enjoy wat u are rite now. Study is important..Health is most important. To me..they don't. Enjoy wat i am rite now. Be stress free. I wanna be. But this is the rule of life. We have to follow. No breakin the rules. No.. Its cool to trash it out here. Its long yeah. Pple can don't read it. Coz its my feeling..My feeling.. Tml is Christmas Eve.. Yeah..suppose to be happy. Wat happen todae..I don't wish to say. Hope that tml can be better. Get the mood and go outing. Let's hope so..

HMmmm...todae friendly seh. WAke up so early. 7am. Wake up gong gong de. Hahaha..after that get ready to go friendly. Hmm..play till quite hiong. 2nd quarter injured a bit liao. Wahahahax..But contiune playing. Then lastly won by 11points. Hahahahax..after that train again. But slack slack ar. Train tactic..shooting. Wah lao..so tired still train. Neh neh POK! Hahaha..then yd kenna push by me and he PUR. Hahahahahaha..!!! Bleed like tapwater..? =x x= after that go makan then go home liao. Sian lo. Play cs with Xiao^MaNtOu and Yd..hahahaha..Then mk come my hse pay me money. Finally..now finally got $$$ lor!!! Wahahahaha..then go orh orh..while mk play his maple. -.-'''' Wazz so fun about tat sia. Wake up le..ask me faster go down..drink water chit chat with yean meng, hong yu and ee hong. They go makan. I go home rot. Hahahaha..go watch =p rot and rot and rot. Xiao^MaNtOu go concert. Sian can't chat online. Neh Neh..come online straight away cs..Tmd..Can die..Then bro wanna use liao. Sian can't cs le. Tml still need to wake up so damn early..go Bishan work. Can die..Hai..todae jus so boring...[nite]

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

HMmmMMm...me damn bored ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Somebody save me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hai..sian sian sian. Don't know what to do..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =(

hMmm..todae so bored lor. Wake up early..bai bai ma dad.~ After that finish le..go slp again. WAhahahaha..slp till 1.37pm then wake up. Song..~ after that eat lunch..then go on com le. Play cs with Xiao^MaNtOu..play play play play..~ till 6. WAhahahah..hiong seh. LoL.. 8 go out buy knee guard. wOooo..then come back play cs again. Hahahaha..so shuang..till now write blog..so sian..Hai..tio kan by mum. Tmd..actually is fine. All because blah blah blah..don't wanna say lar..so tired..Hai. Now go out living room confirm tio kan. Don't know wat to do..Hai..go room slp..=p

Wah...todae is suay day. Hahahax..Wake up early..then Xiao^MaNtOu call. Hahahaha..is I call or she call ar? Aiya..don't know lar. After that ask her call me at 7.20am. Hahahaha..coz wanna slp somemore. Hahahahaax...then call le. Wake up liao. Then pack pack..after that put down the phone liao. She go take bus. After that msg a while. HAhahax..ko lian dai. LAte for band rite..? Hahahahax..Then I go for match. Wah..the match kind of hiong ar. Then the cap knn..kp me say I solo. I solo solo lar. Mus kpkb meh..? I at least solo got score leh. Better than him..miss so much. Assholes! Then all play till damn lan. Me also. Hai..don't know why. Make a lot of mistakes. At the third quarter..cap dulan..anyhow throw ball at me. Make me go rush for the ball twice..heng opponents never get it lor. Tmd..then the second one..I tio injured. Tmd! So fuck lor!!! Then mus rest..4Th quarter still need to play. Hai..wanted to tell mr tan I can't carry on. But we are losing too much. Bo bian..heck care lar. Put that injury aside first..Hai...Then try to bring the team up. Then not bad lar. Our morale quite high by then. But we defended badly. Then hai..we lost. After that...train on attack..at EVSS~ Train till 1+ then go home. Then go food court makan and meet Xiao^MaNtOu. Hahahahax..After that come my house. Hahahax..take the present me bought for her. Hahahahax..after tat stay a while go home le. Hahahax.. then I go slp liao. LoL..Then wake up. Leg and hand pain. Kaox..then go massage my leg. Hahahhaax..after that have dinner..then go out buy stuffs. Come back online lo~ till now updating blog. Hahahax..hMmmm...think end here bah. Go cs with Xiao^MaNtOu and his senior. WAH NOW GOT !!!!

Monday, December 20, 2004

hMmm...todae damn song!!! Training!!! Hahahhax...take two shotput balls into my bag..plus water bottle. Go jog with basketballers and coach to pasir ris. wOooO!!! Fun man!!! Jog and walk jog and walk. Then eat one strange thing. Hahahax...take from the roadside. Hahahaha..black black one. But damn sweet!!! Hahahahx..then do alot of things lor during the walk. So fun!!! MAke fun of Ganesh and one uncle. Hahahax..run past the uncle and give one signal. Hahahahax...bth...but my shoulder and neck pain like hell. One day go massage parlour massage..wah..confirm song. Hahahax. Contiuned next time...lazy type..

Hmm..todae is working day. Wake up quite early sia. About 7.30am like that. Then wash up go work. EAt breakfast le. Eat liao..stomach ache. Sian..Chiong toilet. Hahahaax..Then take cab go walk. Quite shuang lar. Walk 8 and half hours. EArn 30 bucks like that. Not baaD~.. Hahahax..Then at 5. Going to knock off le. Neh neh..I become spiderman. Kan Cheong spider. Run errands till I swear like jus came out from a hot bath. Hahahahax..Coz late liao. Meet Xiao^MaNtOu 5pm. But already pass time liao. Hahahaha..then rush here and there. till 5.40pm then finish. Then go meet Xiao^MaNtOu go makan. Fried oyster. Wahahahaha..Don't dare eat oyster. KuKu ar..Hahaha..wasted. After that go home..~Come home get ready tution. Then tutor call say no tution!!!! SOng sia!!!! Open champagne celebrate seh!!! Then go online. Chiong cs with Xiao^MaNtOu and tan zhiwei. Hahahahahax..So shuang ar. Positive frag. After that change to aim map..I kenna frag..then tio spray till i sian ji bua. Hahahahax..Aiya..play till 10 like tat come out tok crap with my partner liao. WAhahahahahax..bth...

Hmm..todae ar. Wake up quite late. 1233pm. Hahahahax..slack like shit sia. Yesterdae chat on the phone till quite late. LoL..but nvm lar..training 3 starts. Hahahax..Wake up eat fried rice tmd gastric pain. Die liao..pain till bth then go makan medicine. Somemore plus yesterdae that cool drink - Fibre Plus. Make me afternoon lao sai 4 times. Wah lao..the drink is steady poo pi pi..! Hahahax.. After tat still pain then go online. Change my blogskin. Hahahax..find the blogskin till my eye pop out sia. Then chat with Xiao^MaNtOu also. So song..almost everydae go out. If I like that also..Song tio sia. 3+ then go training. So steady wear slippers go training. Hahahax..go there tell coach I sick..then sit down see basketballers train. See them train one drill damn fun!!! Train the no-look pass. My favourite. But I sick..can't train. Hai..then coach ask me if i wanna train..feelin better anot..I say WANT!!! But I no shoe..-.-''' Then see them train lor. Till 5.45pm they tio PT. Ahahahahax..then see them suffer. THen I guilty seh. See them suffer. Hai..but I gastric pain. Bo bian..After tat go bbt lor. Saw my bro then go home together. Have dinner all this..Watch tv..Till 11+ then online. Then chiong cs with Xiao^MaNtOu..teach her awp. Hahahahx..not bad lar. But still can improve..Man Man lai bah. =)

Hmm...todae ar..So tiring!!!!~ Wake up so early..give Xiao^MaNtOu morning call. After that get ready to go sch friendly match liao. Sux sia..so nervous. Havent refresh le so fast play match. Then reach sch le. Stomach ache..Chiong toilet~!!! Hahahhax..after a while then ok ok lo. Then start to warm up for the match le. Then sawXiao^MaNtOu enterin the sch..HaHax..After that match starts..she disappears. Hahahax..damn funny. KEnna spray water by me. Then blur blur don't know who sprays. Actually is me. Hahahahahaa!! KL sia~!!! After that match starts. Startin still not so hiong. I still blur blur..After that start to hiong le. Neh neh..scolded by coach.. Hahahax..coz keep making sound effect. I dulan..lost my cool..start to ki siao. One man...heck care le. =x in the end fall down injured. Haix..then sad seh. Left hand so pain. After that go rest then Ah Tan say good play. To me still ok lar. Tmd I fall down just to draw that stupid foul. He dare scold me?! $%@$^@^$%$#%$#% Hahahaax.. Then rest a while play again. Hahahax..then shot in 2 3-points!!!! So cool. Somemore is last ball!!! Then we won by 19points!!! wOooo..!!! After that Guo wei and Jonathan say I one-man..Solo kia. Hai..I admit I am one. But Don't know why like that..Hai..I'm sorry if i'm like that but i can't help it lor. Maybe I'm jus too hungry. Maybe next few friendly matches I try to pass more. Hai..Hope things contiuned this way.. I wanna be the winner. I wanna be the man! I wanna be the key man! Let's hope so..

Back from overseas liao.. The trip was so fun seh. Shop shop alot and play quite a lot. Really enjoy myself. Bought quite a numbers of things. wOooo..Erm..reach checkpoint start sms liao. Hahahax..but sim no money..o.O after that come straight home. So exhuasted. Everywhere so tired. Come home..still have to call JL..Haix..call le..say tml mus go training. Friendly match against Tamp Sec. Man, I just got a shock! I havent refresh myself so fast mus go chiong bball le. Hai..Life seems so tiring.. Why is it always BBALL..BBALL..BBALL..BBALL!!! Feeling so stress up lor.. Don't know why suddenly felt this way lar. Maybe i'm mad or what? Nah, don't give a damn..After readin friends' blog..don't know what happen. These few daes not around..Many things have changed..? Don't know. Read her blog le..See somethings. Seems to be sad. But I don't dare to ask her wazz wrong. Later aiya..don't know lar. So curious..but best don't ask lar. Can't KPo..~ Hai..my mind is shutting..Tml still need to wake up so damn early..hai..wazz going on..mind jus shutting down.. My mind rite now is jus thinking about that thing. Jus keep spinning in my brain. Hahahax..am I thinkin too much..?

Hmm..todae damn fun lor~!!!! Haix..so so so happy!!!! Went out with Xiao^MaNtOu, mk and zw. Then go watch so funny. Hahahaha.. Then very nice lor. Nothing can describes how happy I was le. JUs simply OVERJOYED!!!!! WeEEeeeee!!!! Then after movie go walk walk lor. After that go home with Xiao^MaNtOu..Then hmmm..It was so great lor. Hai..Then go MaNtOu hse..Wahahaha..go bully her. Hahahax...after that go home le..then hai..sad sia. The enjoyable time is over. Then come home get ready go overseas. Then now chattin with Xiao^MaNtOu bid good bye. Hahahahax..sad to part seh..~ Hmm..will miss her bah. Deeply madly sadly..~ Hahahahax..Hmm...sad lor..Jus got to say that..~ But todae is my most enjoyable day~ Thanks Xiao^MaNtOu..~ MuaCkxX..hahaxx..~

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Todae damn f*ing day sia. Tmd, training only got 8 pple train. Nb cb..All go pong teng. Somemore my friends all pong teng..pang seh me and ee hong down there. Butch of assholes. All kay lan say wat sick wat here injured there injured. Tmd...Then coach come. PT starts. Lucky not so jia lat..then do a lot of shootin drills ar. Do till my wrist pain. After that rain~ wOOooo..slacking time~ rain stops contiuned to train again. Hahahax..then play match with ronnie and benny and some others lar. But I never play. Hahahahx..coz next few days going overseas..later injured cannot go ar. After match go bbt lor..End of training routine. Hahahax..then tok a lot of craps there with jing yong, gary and ee hong. Hahahax..Jasmin Green Tea become ... Secret and Peng Jie's drink. Hahahahhax..rofl..then come home makan dinner. Then come online till now..writing blog..Hahahax..also chatting with Xiao^MaNtOu..so funny..bth..Brighten up the days...~

Todae ar..Wait up quite late. Hahahax..then can hear mum's voice liao. Hahahax, keep thinkin where i spend my money on using the ATM card. But I never use leh in the end the money $200+ don't know fly till where liao. But nvm lar..change pin should be ok liao. After that go bball training lor, then raining..hai..fuck. Then coach still wanna us run 2.4..Run in the rain quite fun though..after running feel a little sick. Sian half.. Then still need to training in the rain..And the rain is non-stop. Make me feel so sick. Hai..Then coach come liao..shoot shoot a bit go and rest..Finally~!!! Then teach tactics then go back train again..Sian seh. Till 6 go home lo~ Finally..then go makan..Reach home le..makan again. Hahahax..after that watch tv..so sian..nothing to do. Till now then come online. Then Xiao^MaNtOu hai..so different todae..see liao..so sian..Then aiya..don't wanna say lar..Think like that le lar..anyway, todae totally sux day..

Hmm..todae ar. Woke up at 2pm. Hahahahax..strange don't know why wake up so late. Hahahax..Then, hmm..wake up liao go buy lunch makan.~ Hahahax..surf the net while eating. Hahahax..after that saw Xiao^MaNtOu online..ask her how's the counter-strike. She says can play liao..Hahahax..good ar...Then we play one on one. Hahaha, stupid gal go choose de_dust so big. But I still win hor..? Hahahax..She scares of AWP also.. Hahaha!!! Play play while then go Toa Payoh with mum. Go there bai bai and visit my sick uncle. Wah then my dinner then shiok!!! Bbq stingray and chao kway tiao~ wEee..Eat till so song..After that go to see my bro's tournament at Hougang~ They todae vs don't know what stupid team is that. But they play till damn nice. My bro's team losing by 2 points. Damn interesting. In the end, they lost. SAd ar..~ Then come back lo~ Go makan again with bro. Hahahahax..song. EAt and Eat and EAt non-stop~!!!! After that got home..start to do nothing liao. Sian until now then use..After update blog maybe go cs~ Hahahax..Hmm, think that's all bah. End of the day..-.^

Monday, December 06, 2004

yO..I'm back. Hahahax..sian lor. Past few days busy le..never update. Hahahahax..Anyway todae updating liao. Ok..todae ar damn tiring day lor. Wake up at 0630 wah kaox..Super early..Get ready to go national training. YaWnx..Then gave Xiao^MaNtOu a call. Hahahax..Shuang mah..? =x Then on the way there, wanna listen to discman. But it was spoilt. Hai, sad case man. Damn si bei boring in the end fell asleep. Hahahax..nearly miss the bus-stop but jian liang woke me up. Hahahax..heng ar. Training also very tired..touch up on physical a bit. Haix..yesterdae jus run 4km le..still need to physical. SAd ar. Then my whole leg muscles so weak le. Feeling damn weak now. Hai..Then I guess train too much le. Feeling very tired and muscles is aching. Hai..mondae don't know wanna go training mah. Maybe mus try to go le. Haix..Help me!!! Somebody help me!!! I'm feeling so tired and weak..I really need a break but if skip training will be unfair to others le. Hai..mus be role model. =p *bhb... =x then after training song sia!!! Go bugis meet ma-ma then go makan with relative. EAt WOooo..song sia. Eat till $80+ But never mind lar, mum strike 4D. Ahahahahax..After that went shopping. I bought a new adidas tee-shrit!!! Climacool!!! WOoooo..then buy CD. Nice JAzz song man!!! Then not bad lar..after that go Sim Lim Square with cousin. Wanna buy mp3. Hahahax..hope to buy soon. Hmm, Creative MuVo-Slim or MuVo TX. Hahahax..then also mus buy USB~ Hahahax..aiya, buy everything lar.. =x Hmm, then come home lor..alter my blog. Hahahax..till so late. But there's no difference at all. Hahahahax..After that buy dinner for mum then go meet mk and yd for dinner. Hahahax..eat till so full. Eat one plate of satay bee hoon and yong tao fu. Hahahax..yUm yUm..after that go bball court see..See pple play then also feel like playing..but they all play till so tough. Sian half. Hahahax..somemore so tired le. Then watch watch a while..go home with mk..Hahahax..then till now then write blog. Hahahax..Hmm, guess end here le bah..haha. Me talkative enough le. wOoo..Chelsea leading Newcastle by 1 goals. YeAh..~!!!!

Saturday, December 04, 2004

Hey, I'm back. Man, today was such a long day. Damn tiring. Wake up kind of early and watch lol..quite lame. The show about bayblade one..so lame!! Hahahax..after that on the com lo. Play Championship Manager 03/04. Play till 12.30 go ahmeng hse. Lol..go see his hse play cs and see the "A" maths textbook. Sian le. "A'" maths so difficult. Wah lao..see liao completely blur sia. Then hmm..go training. Sian lor. My first toe is damn pain. Inside got blood, but still go and train. Hai..struggle. Hahahax..The training so ok at first. Till the ending, it was damn tiring!!! The Mr. Tan wants us do PT!!! Omg!!! Do so many push-ups, running and jumping. So pissed off..! I do till...[black face] Du lan. We train so tiring le. Still wanna push us over the limit. Wtf sia..after come home..wah, see !!!! Taufik Batisah simply rox! He is so talented. But my whole family just go for Sly..Sian sia. He shuai shuai only le mah..His song not bad lar. Can fight..but jus hope that Taufik win. Hahahax..now still watching. NOw is the result liao..Ahahahax..~ Now let's wait for result then I contiuned. Hahahax, man those supporters are so crazy!!! Keep screaming..but I jus love their spirit..Hahahax..[Man, Gurmit stop ur craps le] Hahahahax...lalalalalalalalalala..

I'm waiting..still waiting..still waiting..still waiting..still waiting..!!!

Results : Taufik Batisah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMg!!! I just love it!!! Hahahax..gonna go~ Bai bye! Yeah babe Yeah babe. Xiao MaNtOu, how was it eh..? Hahahahax..

Wednesday, December 01, 2004